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[Nov. 25th, 2009|12:33 pm] |
Raphael just put Chealsea on his shoulders damn easily and she screamed like crazy!! Anyway had good company and damn funny dinner last night :)
Can't find the motivation to study for Phy!!!!! |
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[Nov. 24th, 2009|12:35 am] |
My awesome cute sister did this for me and I'm so happy about it cause it's so colourful and glittery. She commented that it's so easy to make cards for me because all she had to do was to put alot of glitter on it :D I LOVE YOU!!!! :)
Totally feel like I'm in holiday mood alr. Cannot cannot go out too much this week. Meeting Mich and the rest for dinner, and possibly going fabric shopping for prom dress on Thu. Today's chem MCQ was the worst paper so far, but who cares because I've only Phy MCQ left on the 30th. Can't wait for it to come and I have my >8months freedom!
Was supposed to go to bed. But decided to blog first. Anyway Sims 3 is fun! When I play it on cy's comp.. because this comp sucks and everything lags + auto restart while I'm in the game. So fed up. Tom365 isn't loading so I'm so annoyed because I want to watch gossip girl! My phone's officially spoilt too, can't wait to get new phone and bling the whole thing :) Oh yeah! If I'm going Arab street on Thu maybe can buy blings and bling my itouch first, I haven't even sync the music in!
Need new shoes, the everlast one died, SO SOON. I need so many new things don't think I've enough money.
Erika's going Thailand on Thu! :( Sad that she'll be gone although it's only gonna be afew days because no one to complain to! :(
Shall go sleep now because my sucky comp refuse to work properly.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE, RAPHAEL AND MARCUS! |
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[Nov. 20th, 2009|12:09 am] |
I hate the feeling of being looked down on and talking to insensitive people, although I always forgive anyway. I may not have the best grades but I am happy with my life right now.
Papers have been sucky, I know some may think it has been easy. But at least I tried. A's has been a torture, I'm just glad that it's going to be all over soon. Shall worry about the grades later, and if all else fails, SIM it shall be.
I sound emo, but I'm not. But I am really bored of studying Econs. Fell asleep so many times, at least there's still tomorrow :) Don't like afternoon papers though, because there's always no lunch. Front row seat tomorrow.. why always so unlucky! |
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[Nov. 14th, 2009|11:48 am] |
A's have been depressing I must say! Won't do well but really glad that one week is over!
And I'm glad there are people around to cheer me up after paper... unlike some insensitive people. It's always comforting to have Rah around!
Can't wait can't wait for it to be over! |
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[Nov. 9th, 2009|08:00 pm] |
"Don't be too stressed okay, it's only A's" says May Lee.
Trying to calm myself down now, with bell curve and Bonito's next launch..? But thinking about everything that we can do and everyone I can meet, I'm excited and can't wait for A's to end!
The big day is finally here. |
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[Nov. 7th, 2009|12:21 pm] |
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Michelle, Davin, and Raphael the people whom I haven't met in ages, if you read this please know that I miss you very much and I miss laughing and talking about the stupidest things.
It's less than a month more to freedom but I am so scared, so scared now. |
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[Nov. 6th, 2009|12:06 am] |
Quick updates:
MY MUM IS AWESOME. She rushed down to metro before her dance lesson to get ipod touch for me because they were at a discount (288$!) but only first few customers can buy it at that price. She ran okay, and then she still act cool tell me I siao when I told her "I love you" and asked if she wanted a hug :$ But she still let me hug her anyway!
I really think I've the greatest family ever :)
Really won't be able to finish revision but doing whatever I can. Extremely exhausted but it's all ending soon!
Getting prom dress customized is really exciting! And the person getting it done is Shi Ai from SN! Can't believe she still remembers me but she seems really nice still :)
Going back to SN tomorrow and I can't wait to go back! Love that place so much but didn't manage to visit often, plus it's going through PRIME at the end of this year. I don't mind it being ulu and old, it's still a really really nice school to be in!
Trying to get into the habit of sleeping early and waking up early. A's is killing everyone but we'll pull through! It's the last month (less than that in fact!) So good luck in advance loves! |
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[Oct. 29th, 2009|12:32 am] |
Today I realised I shouldn't have blogged about you!!! And I don't live my life for you, I live for the people who really care :)
PMS-y these days suddenly very high! Hoping to see Rah next Wednesday before A's start. This is really scary, less than 2 weeks to A's. Waiting for hair to dry before I can go to bed. School tomorrow at 9 so early :( |
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[Oct. 27th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
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No wonder we didn't work out, and wait till my friends hear about this :) |
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[Oct. 26th, 2009|12:08 am] |
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Forgot to blog about this, that AJ kicked out 52 students after J1 Promo exams. 200 students on the list of kicked out, advanced, retest and retained. I really wonder what is the school trying to do and there better be a good explanation tomorrow during their talk. Really pity those retained and then kicked out. And even if they're not retainees, they're not even given another chance? So many complains but what can we do to change the fact. I should count myself lucky..
On a side note, I miss my bangs and really want to cut again. But no supporters so far!
After I read your blog, I feel, sad. I wished I was a better sister to catch you when you fall. I wished I had known about all those times you cried yourself to sleep. But I'm too much of a pig to even realise. I hope you know that I love you plenty. And you'll always be good enough :) |
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[Oct. 25th, 2009|10:38 pm] |
2 weeks before the big A's and I went to Marina Barrage on Sat morning with my family. Though it was a long journay there (2hrs!) cause we got lost and stopped and everything... still made it! Think it'll be nicer at night though and I'd love to fly kite/picnic there! :)
I miss so many things/ppl now but now is not the time, time for catch ups after A's! Study hard people don't think I'll update anytime soon? GP clinic tomorrow, should I go for Summary and AQ or just AQ! Still haven't decided. Nothing to buy online these days and I'm very sianzz and in need of buying something.
Oh and ever since my parents know I'm really stressed over A's my mum has been cooking nice ai xin dinner and my dad offers to pick me up :D Plus my mum went to buy ba zhang because I told her I got craving. Not forget the sister who is going to kill me if I don't mention her.. I think my family's the best :$ |
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[Oct. 17th, 2009|07:59 pm] |
Slept over at Joyce's house on Thu night, baked applie pie for the class and attempted to watch movie but May and Yuyuan fell asleep soon after. Chatted for awhile and slept at 3plus 4? IT WAS FREEZING COLD!!! Was so reluctant to get up at 5plus to go to school. At least I don't have to take train all the way from Marsiling! :D Khatib to YCK so near only! Reached school super early though.
(And thanks for appearing and giving me a surprise was really sweet of you <3)
Farewell assembly was okay, AY danced very funnily amused the audience like crazy! Had math and chem lessons after and we were dying of exhaustion from the lack of sleep. Ugly eye bags! Went to ri ben cun to eat after that with the classmates, the sushi's rice so lousy!!
Didn't get to take much pictures because didn't get the chance to hunt for other class people other than the netball girls because we were supposed to take netball picture, BUT SHE KEEPS CANCELLING. Very annoying. But it's okay at least a pretty picture with the girls!
There wasn't much farewell mood probably because we still have timed prac and the Alevels. And will be meeting up with the closer people for mugging sessions :)
Everyone has blogged about farewell and this shall be my reflections for my time in Aj can skip it cause it'll probably be boring.
As much as I hated my parent's decision for putting me into this school, and how much I complained for the past 2 years that I want this to end soon, but I've soon come to realise that I did enjoy myself after all. No more going to school with the og people, laughing our way and making alot of noise early in the morning and then reaching school just on time for assembly. No more reading room sessions, complaining about boring lessons, shaky tables in the lecture halls, lousy canteen food, endless remedials, everything has come to an end.
Survived the two years only because of the people around. Missed SN alot, and I kept thinking that the people here are so different. Still I managed to find many good friends who always stood by my side, encouraging and believing in me. The people here are always so nice, and sometimes I feel like the meanest of the whole bunch. But still, I realised I really did enjoy myself in Aj after all.
Although the class is really very clique-ish, but there were still times that we managed to bond and interact with each other. Used to be close to the two girls in the other clique now, and I just want to say that although the 4 of us are happy now, but J1 was truly enjoyable with you guys. Thanks for the memories, they will always remain in my heart. The boys were always full of nonsense, but they still brought much fun and laughter.
Am lucky to get to know the girls in the class much better. Though they're forever full of nonsense, but I still love them plenty. Wrote down everything I needed to say in the letter, and I'm sure you guys know how much I love you :)
Of course not forgetting OG and the netball girls, with all the random gatherings and stuff, it was really nice to meet you bunch of awesome people. I am sure this will not be the end of us because we shall still meet after A's, okay! Don't forget ah!
Such a long post but there's still so much to say, I alr cut short! Shall do a longer one after A's...
For now, the only thing we'll all be focusing on is our studies, it's only a short 3 weeks away. I shall survive this and I know all of you can too. To those who genuinely believe I can do it, I will try my best, not to wory :) And good luck to all of the Alevels muggers, this is not going to be easy but we've come so far.
JUST BROKE MY NAIL. Probably time to cut it? I NEED TO EXERCISE |
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[Oct. 10th, 2009|11:50 pm] |
Hope you had a wonderful birthday Joy my Romeo! <3
Ugly fringe, didn't adjust properly :( Had fun at NYDC though, quick dinner but still :) :) Pan wasn't there, come home soon dearest!
Happy birthday Granny! I love my granny and gatherings like this. Btw, my cousin (>30 years old) made a mickey mouse bra using plastic bowl and string to give it to her. (The jack neo show! But can't rmb the title?) SUPER RETARDED but everyone had a good laugh :) Babies grow up really quicky, my cousin is insanely cute and chubby!!
(Check out my chubby cheeks?)
Thanks for everything, for being there when I needed you the most. I know that I'm always impatient and stubborn but still you never lost your temper at me before. I know that I may seem pessimistic about everything now and it's honestly really irritating but you still chose to not give up on me, trying to calm me down and cheer me up. I know that you believe in me and want me to do my best. I couldn't do this without you. Thanks for listening and lending me a shoulder. 5 months flew by pretty quick no? :)
My family is supportive, telling me they'd fall with me if I fell, telling me life goes on and I still have to go online shopping even if I fail A's. (My mum's anti climax statement) I'm thankful that I've such an awesome family, and I'm glad I didn't turn my back on them after the incident two years ago.
I know everyone's feeling the same amount of stress as me, one month before A's. But there are so many who bothered cheering me on even though they felt as shitty as me. I really appreciate it, and I'll try to stand up and face A's like a brave girl and stop running anymore.
Two days of tears been enough. I shall just do whatever I can right now so that I know at least I tried.
Oh yeah. Wanted to say that it's lame to read people's blog and gossip when you don't know that person. But I realise I do that alot too..so..
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[Oct. 7th, 2009|11:20 pm] |
I didn't feel a thing when I received my econs and math paper, I could even smile and act like nothing happened. I did badly of course, but what's done is done. I do study, but my grades will never make it. Even people expect me to fail, and that feeling sucks sometimes though it can't be helped because I've been failing since day one of my life in Aj. 33 days or so to the Alevels. How can one month create a miracle for me?
I miss those days in SN. When mugging with Rah seems a whole lot easier, when there was a condusive school environment to mug in at night. In Aj everything feels so cold and everyone's just mugging, hoping for the best for the Alevels.
Never expected A's to be this tough. But it'll end soon, and I sure hope I pull through. I don't feel a tiny bit of motivation, I'm just studying for the sake of it, trying to do as much as I can in the next one month.
Haven't been in school for two days. Good to be away from school but it's time for me to go to school tomorrow. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2009|10:50 pm] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BIMBOTIC FRIEND I LOVE YOU ALWAYS FOR MAKING SO MUCH NOISE AND FILLING BORING MORNINGS WITH YOUR SCREAMS AND LAUGHTER. GET A BOYFRIEND SOON OR ELSE! I HOPE YOUR EYES SHRINK TO MY SIZE THOUGH ;) CAN'T WAIT FOR AFTER A'S PLANS!!! DON'T THINK I NEED TO TELL YOU ANYMORE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ;) <333333333
Celebrated mooncake fest and my grandma's house yesterday. Cute Edgar and Iker as usual!! Ate alot, I love durian mooncakes! :D
Had a very unlucky day today by the way. Woke up late, was supposed to meet Sebas at 10 but woke up at 10 instead. Waited for bus for 35 freaking minutes and reached Woodlands at 1130. 1.5 HOURS LATE STILL NVM. Made our way to RP which is damn far and the sun super hot. Only to realise the library is closed. Why didn't anyone tell me earlier argh! Wanted to cab to my house cause it was already about 12. Cannot get a cab, then walk all the way back to causeway again.
Sigh I'm so sorry Sebas don't hate me forever okay!!!! My parents are super retarded when they realise it isn't Cy that's over at my house, but another boy... haha, retarded to the max la my dad was so kan chiong.
Sucky GP compre I'm only at the first question shit :( School tomorrow. CAN TOMORROW NEVER COME?
Now that we don't have time to meet, everytime I am able to meet you for a quick meal, you won't even bother, and you'd rather be with her instead, even though I want to meet the both of you at the same time. Is that too much to ask for? You don't even try, that's what hurts the most. I guess this doesn't mean much to you as much as it means to me.
Last night was pms-y. Was thinking too much. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2009|11:24 pm] |
Erika is a retard who doesn't have msn and we end up chatting on FB. Damn ma fan lor!!!!
Today was super tiring! But feel so accomplished! ;) Few of us had to stay back straight after lecture test for chem + math, all the way till 6? Brain dead after and was talking rubbish alr. Slept when I got home and I feel so happy cause I survived such a long day with only 30min break ;) PJ math paper quite hard okay....aiyoh we only managed to do until 9-10 but must get all correct! And I'm good I barely touched my phone today man!
Yu yuan says "You'll always be the bimbo in my heart". WHAT!!!!!!??? So mean look who's the bimbo!
I'm in a good mood, wonder why. I think because I've been rotting since I came home. FB chat really v ugly plus small and weird. But Erika is seriously amusing me. It's the end of the week tomorrow like finally!! :D |
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[Sep. 30th, 2009|11:35 pm] |
I try my hardest to be there. But when I can't help at all, I feel helpless and sad. Some people really amaze me with the things that they do though.
Chem today was bad because I couldn't do the synthesis and just stoned there because we were not allowed to leave until we got the correct answer. But the teacher finally decided we couldn't do it even if we sat there for many many hours so we brought home to do but I'm still unable to do with notes gosh. So hard.
Tomorrow, I end school at 6 plus. And I don't have break I think? Other than the break to bathe after morning PE. Wonder what we're doing for PE tomorrow though? I shouldn't be blogging. It's 40 days to A's, and exactly 2 months till the end of it. I feel even more detached from everyone else than ever because everyone's studying like crazy and I can't even make it for study dates sometimes (due to countless remedials etc) or even have time to prepare for SOMEONE'S birthday present :'(
I've been thinking lately that in my short 2 years in Aj, so much has changed. It's scary and I shall try not to think too much about the past because it will affect me and it's such a waste of my time. |
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|12:44 am] |
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I forgot to mention. My whole table is eating Malay food for prom. I paid freaking 60+ bucks to eat Malay food which I don't like. And the best part? No one asked. Good job, well done. All the more I'm dreading prom, shouldn't even have went knowing I wouldn't enjoy myself. |
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[Sep. 28th, 2009|10:54 pm] |
Even though my stomach is about to kill me, I still need to thank you for coming all the way to my house (again) just to make sure that I'm okay and sitting beside me to study while I slept, and then reaching home so late although there's school tomorrow. <3
Sucky, sucky stomach flu. I seem to be fated with this sickness. What a waste of my time though I get to sleep.
Lousy grades lowers my expectations. SIM now maybe?
I was just thinking.. you can't call yourself a good friend unless you're always there. But you disappear and appear, so there's no way I can depend on you for anything. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2009|10:02 pm] |
I shall not bore everyone with my animals pictures from the Zoo :) Had alot of fun the whole of yesterday!! Zoo changed alot and I would love to go there again!!!! Was exhausted though. (Pay so much must see every single animal and explore every single part so we really did + visited some a few times! :$) Needed this break before the big A's. Before that it was really fun catching up with Davin and Mich, been a long long LONG while since we met, considering how we used to go out every weekend last year! Funny clubbing and DB stories. The ugly truth is a nice show :)
Shall learn to be more optimistic. Although I feel worse than how I felt after I received midyear results. I studied, I really did this time. I did prac, I did all I could but my grades deproved!? Like there's any more marks to deprove, it's so horrible but what can I do. I've decided to just do all that I can for A's and if I don't make it, well at least I tried? I really did. For those who believed in me all these while, I'm sorry for the disappointments. Even I don't expect anything from myself anymore, how sad can that be.
(Ignore bad hair. But my hair quite long alr hor!)
Thanks for not going ahead with your plans and accompanying me home, then being there when I was so upset. Sorry Yan for ps-ing you in the end, will study with you more promise :)
Tomorrow is Friday and I will get to see my darlings :) |
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